My computer desk sits in front of a window. Often when I'm at the PC I look out that window and my thoughts drift back to a different time in my life. Sometimes they are good thoughts and other times I wonder why I would ever want to remember that thought. You know the thoughts I'm talking about, or maybe not, I guess it depends on your up bringing. Anyway the memories you like to forget, have tried to forget, but they just won't leave you alone.

I've often heard you should just let things in the past stay in the past and move on. I have tried that theory, still the thoughts keep popping up. Maybe they are things I need to confront. I think I will call these memories "Unresolved Memories."

I have decided to pen my thoughts, bring them back to the present and by doing this maybe I can have peace of mind. I hope then I can accept what ever it is I'm running from.

There will be good times and there will be sad times. I don't plan to write in order but confront these thoughts as they come to be. Please don't assume I'm a person who holds grudges, has animosity, or is a negative person in any way. In fact I'm just the opposite. I'm a very loving, forgiving, compassionate and positive person. I will say though with my up bringing I often wonder how I achieved this. OK, on with the thoughts.....

I would like to introduce you to my parents. Both alcoholics, and besides being an alcoholic my mother also had some mental issues. My father was 23, and my mother was 17 when I was born. They were not in love, and I was the reason for the marriage. I am an only child.... I think that is a good thing.